So I totally need to go to bed because it’s 1:37 AM and I have to get up at 10:30 so I can go to class at noon. And today I had a class at 10:35 so I was supposed to get up at 9AM but I didn’t feel like it because it’s math and I hate it and I’m behind anyway and I was sleepy so I didn’t go but I didn’t look at my phone until I got to school just before my 12pm class and there was a text from my math teacher saying a telephone pole or something went down in her neighborhood fell over so math class was cancelled and I was like
aaaaaand yeah. So I went to english and had fun and then made mom a birthday cake and we went out to dinner and then ate cake and watched Switched at Birth and I watched Teen Mom and I’ve been reading old RP posts for like the last few hours and I realize how amazing/clever/ghetto fabulous Nicky and I are and I miss her face. And I really need to go to bed because I have class tomorrow and I gotta do english homework and HOLY SHIT BATTLE OF THE EXES STARTS TOMORROW NIGHT I CAN’T FUCKING WAIT.
that is all. off to remove my makeup which is a pain in the ass and then go to bed with my comfy new zebra blankey my parents got me for my birfday.
xoxoxox randomness fun.
ugggghhhh why can’t i just quit school and tumbl full time?
Something really great happened to me today! :))
So we got our papers back today in my English class (second college paper EVER) and my professor says overall the class did well, and on overall content grades there were a few A’s and one A+. So then he starts calling out our names and he calls my name and Brooke goes “Oh, Lauren got a good grade” (Not being mean or anything, it was like she was just stating what, in her opinion, was a fact or whatever. Brooke and I are cool, she didn’t do it to be bitchy) and anyway, Brooke says that and my professor goes “She did. Actually, she was the one who got the A+.” And then he proceeded to stand up in front of the whole class and talk for a good few minutes about what a great job I did and what I did right. And I just lit up.
Because I love writing, and I do consider myself good at it. I’m not cocky but I know my strengths and weaknesses. I suck at math and science, I’m not great with history, but I’m good at English. I won a writing award that was voted on by teachers my senior year (without even knowing about it- talk about a fun surprise) and it came with a check for $1000 for college. I want to teach high school English- it’s what I’m interested in and it’s what I’m good at.
But. The ever promising big old, round and protruding BUT. There is always the possibility of being knocked off your peg. I know I’m not the best writer. I have so much to learn- nobody knows that more than me. I’m the worst critic and I’m so hard on myself it’s unreal. But when something is good, I’m not afraid to say it’s good and be proud. When my jackass history teacher accused me of plagiarizing my term paper junior year, I cried. Because that was a damn good paper and I deserved a good grade. After some convincing he eventually bumped my F up to a B, but it still hurts and pisses me off to this day. Point is, I know when I’m good and when I suck and I’m not afraid to call myself on it. If I’m bad, I’m bad and I’ll be the first one to tell you “this is a piece of shit, you shouldn’t like it because it doesn’t deserve to be liked. I know I can do better and this is way below what I know I’m capable of.” But if I’m good and I’m really proud of myself, well… it’s nice to know other people realize it. :)
Moving on, because this post isn’t about that. It’s about today and knowing that I’ve impressed my first college English professor. My assignment was to write about anything dealing with gender, so I chose to explore the ways theatre kids are frowned upon and/or outcast in high school. The title is ‘War Against Labels: Male and Female Stereotypes Versus the Truth in the High School Arts Environment and What Makes It Okay to be Different’ Short and sweet, obviously ;D
At the bottom of the paper my professor wrote the following: This is a great essay- I think you did a particularly good job of writing with a (word unable to identify here- his writing is messy) and word choices perfect for your audience!!! (Yes, he put three !’s) Nice flowing writing style!!
It’s been a good day. :) I hope yours is too.
10/5/2011
Wednesday
